詩歌《我不怪你》（I Do Not Blame You）

作者：泰華

我不怪你——寫給小貓蹦蹦

2026年7月15日

我不怪你。

風一吹，
你的目光，
總會越過門口，
落向草地，
落向遠方。

那裡，
本來就是屬於你的世界。

我輕輕叫你。

我知道，
你聽見了。

你只是低著頭，
聞風，
聞草，
假裝什麼都沒有發生。

後來，
我不再追你。

我知道，
越追，
你會跑得越遠。

我只是站在不遠的地方，
靜靜守著。

讓你的自由，
留在我的目光里。

我擔心的，
從來不是你想看看世界。

我擔心的，
只是這個世界，
未必總是溫柔。

所以，
我不怪你。

也請你不要怪我。

每一次輕輕喚你回家，
都不是為了關住你。

只是希望，
明天清晨，
當我把腳伸進拖鞋的時候，
你還能像往常一樣，
輕輕蹭一蹭我的腳，
然後抬起頭，
安靜地看著我。

那一刻，
我就知道，
你回家了。

I Do Not Blame You–For Bengbeng, My Cat（English）

By Tai Hua July 15, 2026

I do not blame you.
When the wind blows, Your gaze Always drifts past the doorway, Falling toward the grass, Falling toward the distance.
That place, Has always belonged to your world.
I call you softly.
I know, You have heard me.
You only lower your head, Sniffing the wind, Sniffing the grass, Pretending as if nothing has happened.
Later, I stop chasing you.
I know, The more I chase, The further you will run.
I only stand not far away, Quietly watching.
Letting your freedom Remain within my sight.
What I worry about, Is never that you want to see the world.
What I worry about, Is only that this world, May not always be gentle.
So, I do not blame you.
And please, do not blame me.
Every time I call you home softly, It is not to keep you locked away.
I only hope that, Tomorrow morning, When I slide my feet into my slippers, You will still, as you always do, Nudge my feet gently, Then lift your head, And look at me in silence.
In that moment, I will know, You have come home.